New & different all at the same time

There’s only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self.

–Aldous Huxley

I have always wanted to be a writer.  As a young girl, I had notebook upon notebook where I’d write my little stories, letters, poems, and draw little (always bad) pictures to go with them.  I’ve nearly always kept a diary of some sort, be it on paper or online.  I write because it is who I am.  I am a writer.  To date I have written around 400 poems (not including anything written before age 14), 3 first drafts of novels, and a ton of unpaid articles for various local newsletters.  But I’m not published…and that’s kind of a goal of mine.  I’d like to finish something that took longer than a few hours to throw out there.

That being the case, I’m currently taking a two year novel writing course online. The whole thing goes completely backwards to how my mind works usually, but how my mind works usually hasn’t gotten me past a few bad first drafts, so I’m willing to try something new in hopes of something fabulous happening.  It’s been hard work, writing character descriptions and motivations and world building without the convenient flow of story carrying me onward, but I work at it a little at a time and try to wrap my mind around the homework assignments.

Also in the category of trying old things a new way: I’m joining a gym with the goal of losing weight and getting in better shape.  For years and years I’ve taken a daily (or as close to it as I can manage) walk and done some at home yoga or pilates videos, but I’m not getting anywhere with them.  The doctors all say that every pound of weight I lose will take four pounds of pressure off my knees.  I think my knees (and ankles & feet) would really like that.  However, I’m really phobic about going to a gym.  Not only do I have all these health issues, but the pretty people in the gym terrify me, as do all those shiny reflective surfaces.  But the way things are going right now, I haven’t lost any weight at all; in fact, I seem to keep gaining it.  So I’m on a week’s free pass at a local gym starting today.  I’ll be going to the least scary gym I can find (several people have called and told me it’s a fine gym, but wouldn’t I rather go to this shiny place with 9 billion classes?  Umm…no) and taking a yoga class with real live people and using machines that aren’t my Wii balance board to work out on (probably just the elliptical, actually, but that’s more than I’m doing right now).  I know it’s not going to be easy and there’ll definitely be days that I can’t make it to actually work out, but at the very least, I’d like to be able to show up there & give it a try.  If I can’t work out, well, there’s always the sauna, right?